I was your Silver Lining

It’s so crazy how many followers I’ve lost! o: I think I was comin’ close to 100 while I was still reblogging just random stuff, but now I’ve been posting mostly rants so I’m down to 60 ahahaha

But people love badgers. 

If I ever met Ira Glass, I’d more than likely cry. Seriously. His voice is the reason for my existence.

This weekend was nice. :) I really enjoy most of my family on my dad’s side- Will came with and hated every moment of it though so…

 But I liked it a good bit, it was nice meeting my Great Uncle Ron and Aunt Candy, although he, Grandpa Don, and Danny only talked about ditch weed and the military. But it was nice listening to them anyway. We named the canoes we put out on the Big Piney that empties out to the Gasconade- Aegina(Like Vagina, named by my drunk Aunt), Bobbie, Jenny, Tilly, Ralph, and one more that I can’t remember right now… But it was after we were on the river for about six hours, and I drank spring water right from the river and it was cold and tasted nice and I didn’t get the shits like Will said I would. Everyone said “Fucking” every two seconds, and Danny made a ton of references to Mr. Winky under the big top for his new German wife Nadine, and they brought Nadine’s German mom and she didn’t speak much English so sorta stared wide eyed at everything until the sang a German drinking song that used to be a for real song ahahaha “Living next door to Alice- Alice?? Who the fuck is Alice??” and a few others. But that side of my family is German, most not born there, but they go all the time. The family is set to go back in September, and some may move there soon. A lot of my other family lives there too, Renee, Theresa, Stephanie, David, etc. But Will insists everyone is just being weird and they’re all American and should accept that. But if it’s what they want then why not? And I rode quads with Will through the woods, and we took walks, and Sabra and I ran around together, and all my cousins and one guy named Justin ate and slept together- and we slept in a garage on bunk beds. I also recieved $120 from my family! And a hundred of that was from my grandparents which completely shocked me! I thought I’d get maybe forty from my family, but one hundred and twenty dollars ? I never expected that at all for my graduation. There were several fights, but for the most part it was a nice trip with my family. And I got to meet little Dillon, who is incredibly cute and follows my Uncle/Cousin or w/e Lonny around.

And I didn’t get a sunburn. :)

I can’t be friends with boys cause I just can’t see them as real people. And usually, I just don’t like them ahahaha. It really confuses me as to why, except Will, he’s kinda a person to me.

 But really, ALL my friends are girls. With the exception of David and Carlos- but usually I have at least one guy friend I’m super close to, like Adam or Adam or Adam or Michael ahahaha, I have had a lot of guy friends named Adam that I was really close to for some reason. I was friends with THREE guys at one point when I was in middle school though, Chris, Nick, and Stephan, and when I was still in Illinois my best friends were Paul, Jeremiah and Sourish- which is weird cause I now have a kid at my center named Sourish. I had a huge crush on Stephan when I was really young, and he once gave me a chocolate rose for Valentine’s Day, and I still have it. But then he started dating a ton of girls, and then I had a crush on Chris, and he used to dress up like Naruto on a daily basis which I thought was kinda weird, but he used to also sit on my bike while I rode around the neighborhood and I recently saw him and it was super weird- and he grew up to be handsome, and I grew up to be sweaty with glasses and chopped off hair and an ill fitting dress while my unibrow grew in cause I’m super cute. And I’ve had crushes on Paul, Stephan, Chris, Adam M., Haley(I’m not a lesbian ahaha), Will, Colin, then Will, then Adam, then Will again. And you could say I had an enduring crush on Will since the time I started to like him, which then turned into love.

But it’s weird that I can basically count on two hands all the guy friends I’ve had. But maybe it’s cause all the boys I’ve known shout obscene things at me out their windows, or threw trash at my a couple times, or threw a rock at my face and smashed my glasses and told me I was dog shit or a dyke and stuff like that. Hmmmm ahahaha

single life, here I come.